Somewhere over the rainbow

                       My sweet little baby

                         JUGUETE

Septiembre de 1988 - Agosto de 2005
In Loving memory

You were born in a beautiful springtime day of ’88. I remember when dad woke us up that early morning to see you be born of your mummy Moñi’s belly, as beautiful as you, your little screams and your mother’s announced so expecting birth.

I’ll never forget so special moment in my life that will be recorded in my memory forever. We had given you the welcome to this fantastic, terrenal world as amazing as cruel, well, life’s like that in this world full of joy and sadness.

At the beginning we were a large family and we were happy altogether, but the ominous destiny wanted that your beautiful mummy and two of your little brothers went to Kitten’s Heaven as quickly as the speed of the light. Her stay on earth was so fast and fleeting as a brilliant star. Maybe, that’s the reason heaven couldn’t wait and decided that three new little and shiny stars became into powerful angels protecting you and us….

You were so small and innocent as beautiful. I remember that you made from scratch sacred substances, you would play with everything you found on your way, perhaps some feather of the many ones your partners the doves let fall from the trees nearby to our yard, you played with bugs that you yourself caught …, and climbed to every thing and ran fast through the yard. Everybody could notice you were a happy kitten…

I also know that you had some secrets very well hidden, when in summer at night you enjoyed staying on the roof to have some chat and if not a small play with your kitten-like friends from the neighborhood. I really felt happy to see you.

Little star, I see your last toys, your blanket, your comb of thin cardine, you scented soap… everything I keep and treasure Do you know why my little baby? Because since your departure I’ve cried for the past, the present and specially the future. I cry for the whole life. It hurts so much your absence! But it is your staff that fills my heart with nice memories.

And heaven waited 16 years and 11 months to become you into the most beautiful and shining star ever, since now you are in a privileged place and you look beautiful, healthy and happy as you were here on earth. And you share that place with your cousin Maky, your mummy, your two little brothers and the rest of the animals that passed away during all these years. There, in that paradisic place you are altogether again, happy, healthy and playing joyly as you used to do some years ago…

Many memories come to my mind from all these moments of happiness you were by my side… we’ve grown up together, we’ve been the one for the other, sharing happy moments as well as sad ones.

You were present every time, promises and wishes you witnessed, except for the last wish I had: to be by my side for many more years.

It couldn’t be this time, JUGUETE. I don’t think that it was your time, I don’t believe in that, I know what it happens… it happens for some reason, finally… I wish you were here again as you were before, sharing life together, to go back in time and caress you, protect t you, take care of and love you as I always did…

Three months have passes and I still look for you everywhere.
I need your presence, I need to stroke you to, hold you and to feed you with your favorite food… I wish you slept at my feet in bed as you used to do in winter and have you in my arms and tell you that you are my little baby and that I love you.

So many things I would like to live again with you that the list would be endless, because only you and me know the happy moments that we spent together in all these years, but unfortunately all this is behind.

How should I forget so much love, that unconditioned love that you gave me so many times?

I also remember two years ago when I was in bed with the flu and high temperature and you took care so much of me, I could see your little worried eyes and your sadness. I noticed you had anguish because you had never seen me on bed before. You knew I was strong. I had you near my side and I felt strong, I knew you wished me well, because you needed to see me healthy and strong as you were used to see me. You never let me alone, you only went downstairs to eat something or to go to the yard just for a while. But then you came back to my side and to stay by me…

Do you remember when I named you JUGUETE because everybody that new you for the first time said that you looked like a teddy kitten?

Thank my little baby for all the things I learned from you, thanks for all the love, faithfulness, company and thank you having made me so happy during all these years. Even though I’ll cry for you every single day of my life because I’ll never accept your cruel destiny, I want you to know that I always feel you near me.
I know you are here in my house, in our house and in that special and adorable place for you, your small garden, where you rest now, but you are also in my heart, in my mind and in my dreams…

Aquel hermoso día primaveral otra vida mas libre te acunó en su paz al final del día pegándome un golpe brutal e inhumano que tiñó todo del color del "dolor",
porque fue el día que una maldita enfermedad
 te quito para siempre de mi lado.

That beautiful springtime day a freer life cradled you in its peace when the sun went down, giving me an inhuman and cruel stroke that dyed everything in “pain”, because that day was the miserable day in which a dammed illness took forever us apart

That night, the night of August 26^th 2005 your eternal fly to wonderful rainbow took off towards the invisible blue of the sky…  

My protecting little angel,

 wind breaker, your courage was even more!!!

            Take care, “piece of light” and wait for me till the day we can be happy the two of us together, as we were before, but that day will be forever and for the whole eternity.
IT’S A PROMISE!!!

            “It’s probable that every August 26^th a dry tree
can grow up…”

I miss you a lot

            I love you with all my heart!!!

Your mummy,

Roxy